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Friday, October 3rd, 2014
1:57 am - its been over 2 years...
I decided to look through some of my old journal entries from back in the day today. My craziest period of my life had to be 2003-04. It was all about getting drunk..having sex with girls and partying hard. Work was kind of something...nothing like it is now.

by the way..if I have any friends left on this thing..I got married and I have a kid now. So Ive done alot of growing up lately.

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Monday, January 28th, 2013
7:03 am - I'm crazy

I wake up at 3:30 am 3 days a week...and every time I do it...it sucks. I keep trying to tell myself, this is what I have to do to be successful, but man it's hard...

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Tuesday, May 29th, 2012
1:56 pm - dude...life
I gotta get away somehow..I dont know what it is man...Im just tired of this shit

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Monday, November 7th, 2011
8:54 am - P90x
So I started P90X almost 7 weeks ago, and I can truly say, Im a huge fan. Ive lost almost 20lbs doing it. I feel fit and strong again. I can wear shirts that I was on the verge of throwing out 2 months ago because I couldnt fit in them anymore.
I took a picture of myself before I started (I will not post it), and I looked at it the other day, and its such a HUGE difference! My belly that I have accumulated the past 2 years is melting away and I feel so much better about myself.
Although I am not seeking a new relationship right now. I am getting female attention again, and its a good feeling. My confidence has sky rocketted and my work performance has gone up. Funny how working out consistently will make your world change...

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Monday, August 29th, 2011
9:58 pm - dude...
bump that shit...

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Tuesday, June 28th, 2011
7:17 pm - shits weak..
Yea, another day that I feel like emotional crap. I keep having thoughts of wanting to travel again..Im thinking I might got ot New York for a week at the end of the summer. I also keep thinking that I want to move away too..my job is too stressful, and the thought of living somewhere that I can actually do things and enjoy my life is sounding very nice..not georgia..hell no..not georgia..Im thinking the north, where it might be cold..or even out west..who knows..
so many thoughts running through my head, so many ideas that I have for my life...i just dont know where to go and what to do with them..

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Sunday, June 26th, 2011
9:39 pm - Trials and tribulations of being me
So, my 2.5 year relationship has come to an end. The whole situation just sucks and I know I fucked up. So, now I am re evaluating my situation and figuring out what I want to do with my life. My job is great, but the amount of hours I am putting in, are kinda crazy..today was my first day off in weeks, and I wont have another one for 5 more weeks..I'm not sure if I can do this for the rest of my career..
I wanted to write tonight, but I don't have the energy or the drive right now..maybe tomorrow..

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Monday, May 30th, 2011
1:32 pm - Face to Face/ Strung Out/ Blitzkid/ Darlings
As Strung Out plays the chorus for "Walk" by Pantera during one of their songs:
"Dude, I havent heard this song since I was in High School in 93, dude!" Thats when I knew, I was amongst fellow 30 year olds and up...

I went to the show in st. petersburg last night and I have to say it was probably the BEST show I have been to in my adult life, in about 10 years. I am a huge Face To Face fan, and I have seen them so many times, but last night was definitly the all time best I have ever seen. I think there were many factors involved with this, so today, i will break them down, and talk about some new show things, that I had never seen before, with technology all over us..it was an eye opener.

First off, let me say that I rarely go out anymore, so I had been planning this show for weeks since my friend John Carr texted me "Face to Face, may 29th". I hadnt seen John in like 5 years, and not really talked or texted since then, so it was serious text. I had plans to eat with my family that afternoon, and I didnt get a ticket, because in my mind, "who still knows about Face to Face except for old farts such as myself". So, the plan was to go early, and buy my ticket at the door. On my way there, I called John to see if he was gonna go, and he said "naw man..I dont have any money, plus I heard the show was sold out!" NOOOOO!!! I was almost there and freaking out. So, I get there and there are a few people hanging out in front, and I think the worst that the show is sold out and Im not gonna be able to see the band. Luckily, it wasnt..I think they had 10 tickets left, and I bought number one, so there were 9 left.

2. The Darlings. I originally told alot of people about the show, and some said they would think about going. Well, that didnt happen, and I was there solo, which, at my age, I don't really care, because I was there for the music anyway. I just found a spot to stand and watch the opening bands and I was quite content with it. The Darlings were up first, and those guys were awesome! I found myself bobbing my head to their music and just having a great time. I started talking with some guys next to me and we all agreed that they were good. Its funny, and it happens all the time, when a band plays somewhere that nobody knows who they are, the floor is empty..but as they played their 4th song the had a pretty good crowd gathered..they were good, real good..I might get their album good.

3. The Bar. After they played, I walked out to the bar area, and bought a beer. I started to notice that everyone was of age to drink, and that there were no teenie boppers hanging out doing stupid stuff in a corner, trying to look cool. Could this be, the ultimate show?

4. Blitzkid. at first glance, I thought these guys were gonna suck, Im not gonna lie. As they were setting up, I was like "oh reat, another death metal band that is totally not in line with the rest of the line up" but I was totally wrong. I thought their name was really lame, but theyt rocked man..great set, and great show.

5. Strung Out. By this time the place was packed! Now, a little history with me and Strung Out..Ive never really liked them that much. ive seen them a bunch of times back in the day, and I always saw them as a crappy pop punk band, that just sucked. Of course that was my pretentious side back then, and I was always tryting to keep it real, I guess back then. But this time was different, I actually liked them. I got to know the guys standing next to me pretty well. I didnt get names, but we all noticed that the crowd was def older. then the Pantera riff came on for "Walk"..and fists from everyone pumped in the air "RE-"..."SPECT"..."WALK!!" and the guy next to me starts freakin out.."Dude! I havent heard this song since I was in High school man!" and everyone knew it..it was a great moment. We looked at the crowd everywhere and they were being so cool. No pretentious kids standing with their arms crossed fidling with their "cool" hair..just a bunch of 30 and ups watching a show and enjoying it. It was a great moment and the show just took a huge turn the being one of the best shows of my life.

6. Face to Face. As Strung Out ended their set, the State Theater was maxed out, and it was hot as hell in there. I started to notice some familiar old faces in the crowd..alot of them! People I hadnt seen in years were there. I had planned to just sit back and watch Face to Face from the back, but that changed as the band started setting up. I ran into my friend Alyssa, whom I wasnt expecting to see at a punk rock show at all...and we stood by the floor. They came out and it was just straight up energy. I can't remember what the first song was, but everyone got into it, and people started flocking to the floor. Next thing I knew, I was up in front throwing my arms in the air, singing my butt off. They played for 2 HOURS! Every single song they had, I swear! Trever Keith's son came up and played a song with them. It was kinda funny because he was the typical teenager with his dad, trying to look cool and rolling his eyes as he played..it was funny, but I could tell Trever was really happy to have him on stage. Overall, I think they had a great time playing in front of us. last time I saw them, they just looked pissed off, but they looked like they were trul;y having fun.

It was so cool though, I mean people were crowd surfing and actually catching people and helping each other. It was like the old days, looking out for one another. I think going to shows now is so different because the kids dont catch each other and when they try to crowd surf, they just fall down..but not last night..it was like a giant punk rock party. Overall, I have to say, it was one of the funnest nights I have had in awhile, and Im really glad I got to go. By the end of the show, I was tired, and covered with sweat..but it was agood feeling.


7. an observation. You know technology has pretty much taken over our world. When I saw these guys almost 15 years ago, it was risky to bring your camera to a show, because you never knew what might happen to it..it could get smashed, cracked, thrown in the pit..you just didnt do it. Last night, I saw more I-phones recording the show that ever. It was crazy! There were like lighter during "Freebird", all over the place. I have a simple phone, so seeing that kinda freaked me out a bit, I dont know why..it just did.

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Saturday, April 9th, 2011
8:21 pm - Great Day today
Today was a great day, the team I coach had a swim a thon and we raised a good bit of money. I dressed up as a banana and jumped in the water with them. But the highlight of the event was seeing the older kids motivating the younger ones and really stepping in the leadership department.
Its also a good day because "Kiss me Deadly" came on my I-Pod today by Generation X, and I fucking love that song! If I could think of all the times Ive listened to that song in my life, they were always the good times..you know!?
My friend Collins and I might start a soul night in town which has put me in a greater mood. I decided to make an effort to go out once or twice a week to hang out with the tribes in town. Collins and I went to the hub and just talked about soul and scootering and all. He thinks I need to get a scooter..but I dont live in Tampa proper really for one..I live in the burbs now..I dont know..its tempting..
There are so many things going on tonight, but we cant go out for financial reasons..I wish I had fucking money to do shit. That DJ Darude is spinning tonight in Bradenton, hes the guy that made the cheesiet of cheese club anthems "Sandstorm". I really wanted to go, and fist pump with the best of em..but, I cant..LOL!

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Friday, April 1st, 2011
10:27 am - the weekend is here!
Some serious tornados ripped through my neighborhood yesterday. My neighbor told me he saw 2 come down and rip through some trees across the street from us..crazy. I was at work when it all went down, and it was scary over there too. Our cat was trembling when I came home to her, I felt bad..
We had no power for most of the day yesterday, but it came on while we were sleeping. Today seems to be a nice day so far. Im gonna go to work, be positive and then go to my friends party tonight, which should be fun.
I want to do some other shit this weekend, some other parties, but I want to take a guys night out deal..I just want to get hammered with the boys tomorrow night..well see..

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Friday, November 19th, 2010
8:33 am - where the wild things are
I just saw the movie and I have mixed feelings about it..part of me wants to say I liked it..but a bigger part of me wants to say I was very disapointed and I thought it sucked.

I did like the monsters and how realistic looking they were, but the story itself was terrible. I understand Spike Jones and his creative vision, but that movie was not good..

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Thursday, November 4th, 2010
9:59 pm - sad days in florida
So the douche bag Rick Scott got elected as govenor of Florida and to say Im pissed is an understatement. I can't believe we have a financial crook as the head dude in our state. Goes to show you that most people dont do their homework when it comes to voting. I think they just see "republican" so they just vote...hes a terrible candidate..I swear if I had money like that dude, the last thing I would have done was buy votes..oh fucking well
We are going up to Georgia tomorrow and Im kind of excited about the trip. We need a nice long road trip together. Life has been too busy for us, and this will be a good way to get away for a bit.

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Monday, November 1st, 2010
9:26 am - froot loops are so damn good
I love em. I know they are super bad for me, but they taste so good.
Shawna and I went to a haloween party on saturday night. My friend and longtime roomate Beau threw a party at his house. It was cool, it was a far cry from the parties we had when we were young, but it was a nice pace. Not too much drinking going on, actually I think I had 3 beers total.
Its weird being at a party with little kids running around. Not that Im complaining cause its just a fact of getting older but, beaus kid kept staring at me and my banana costume like he wanted to eat me.
The kids are still young enough that the women still wore their "sexy" costumes, which I think is so played out now. Beau's fiancee megans brothers brought their friends over and they are alot younger than us, and their girlfriends had the typical Dorothy and sleeping beauty sexy outfits on..nice to look at, but played out.
Shawna and I did a "Banana Hammock" word association costume..and for the most part everyone got it, but it took some others awhile to figure it out.
we spent most of yesterday at IKEA looking at how we are going to set up our new apartment. I think it will look cool once we are done, but its gonna take time and money. on the flipside, I cant waitto do it it, because living amongst boxes sucks ass..

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Friday, October 22nd, 2010
11:51 pm - The Usuals are back!
Im so happy right now..The usuals are playing in Gainesville next month!! Talk about awesome! Im overly excited about the show..this marks 16 years as a Usuals groupie! hahaha!!

and I found this:

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Monday, October 18th, 2010
10:11 am - New pad
So my girlfriend and I have just officially moved in together into our own place this weekend. I really like it and its nice. I didnt think I would move back into an apartment complex again, but this one is good. Im about 15-20 minutes from work and Im close to the interstate and to other things that pertain to me.
As much as I love my job and it is something I have worked for, pretty much my entire career...I really miss being able to do things. I kinda miss my freedom to go out and not have to worry about waking up on time,or perceptions. I miss the days that I can say to somebody, "you know what? I don't give a fuck!"..those days are over. When you are young you thik you own the world, but as you get older you realize the world has you by the balls.

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Tuesday, October 12th, 2010
8:59 am - AHHH YEAHHH!!!
So I woke up for practice this morning at 4AM and I had to pull the pool covers off at 4:40AM. The kids started showing up around 4:50 or so. They came over and were just mucking about talking and not getting in the water, so I lost it, and screamed at them to get in. its the first time Ive lost my temper with them. It was mostly because I did the covers by myself for them! I accidentally slipped the F bomb because i was so mad..so I might get some backlash.

But, they made up for it and swam really well for the entire practice, so I was called down afterward. then out of nowhere, I started singing "Hip Hop Hooray" by naughty by Nature..and its been in my head all morning...I look at the clock, its 9AM, and Ive been up for 4 hours already!



Its gonna be a good day

current mood: content

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Wednesday, September 29th, 2010
7:00 am - Ask Gary?
So, I'm really kind of sick and tired of listening to those 1-800-ASK-GARY radion ads. I think they are trying t o reach out to black people because they are so racially profiled its not even funny.
I have to switch the station because it kills me that a company would do that. What is this world coming to?
In other news, I drive a van pickup route to one of the elementary schools for work, to help the facility out. Yesterday, one of the 5th graders on my run was talking to me about how he thought downtown disney was a rough place and that I should stay away from it. I was laughing so much, and he kept saying "Im serious, dawg..Im serious.." Kids...Mickey is holding it down with his crew, and might pull a jack move...

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Friday, September 3rd, 2010
11:01 pm - Glastonbury 2010
So Ive been watching the footage of the festival on the Palladia channel (which is my new favorite channel). And I looked at the line up online and Im blown away by how big it is, and how many performances there were.
I thought to myself it would be good to go to a show like that again..3 days..millions of people..good music...well, the people thing would probably suck, but none the less, it looks awesome.
I was talking to Ralph today about seeing Groove Armada sometime before I die. They are one of few bands that I love that I havent seen live yet and that I hope to see. The best show I ever saw, in my eclectic music taste, was the Prodigy in tampa in 1995. They played a small venue here and it kicked ass, and Ive seen ALOT of great bands in my life..but that show was by far my all tiime favorite.
I think the fact that it was small, and there was so much energy, and I had been following them since high school, it just kicked ass. More than my first Morrissey show, and that says alot.

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Thursday, September 2nd, 2010
9:48 am - a peter pan update
for all of you wonderiing what the hell is Peter Pan up to these days in Tampa...well he is in a band now. Hes playing all over the place..and its rather funny..


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Wednesday, September 1st, 2010
10:17 am - another day another day
so I just recently got promoted at work and now I'll be working a hell of a lot more now. Im excited about the position, but Im not excited about the hours at all. Life has become a bit boring lately and Im planning to have some fun this upcoming weekend. My giirlfriend is going up to Atlanta for her step sisters bachelorette party, so that means I can actually go out barhopping maybe, and chill with the boys (something I dont get to do anymore).
I wish there were some shows this weekend, cause Id do that too..
maybe I'll sit around and listen to the Smiths..I can do that too..

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